Ok so we had the husbands friends over yesterday of which was planned. Then the parents bought a swing set for my daughter and came over yesterday.  That  brought my brother and his wife and kids. They brought a cousin, wife and kid. For a person who never has anyone over I all of a sudden had about 15 people over. Freaked out is even the phrase for what I was. Being totally disorganized and my back, legs and feet just simply hurting. We did the shove. We have so many dishes that need to be done, but had no time to do them correctly. So we had to shove them into buckets and filled the dishwasher, the oven and any place that we could for the time being. Then the laundry is now my own personal mountain next to my side of the bed. And anything we didn’t know what to do with at that moment we shoved into our room. This is why I am ever the optimist. I had planned to go out with my mother saturday and then go see the butterfly house at the zoo with my daughter and husband yesterday morning before going back home to get the swing set up and do a BBQ for the helpers. Yes ladies and gents I am ever the optimist, but of course we did not get to go to the butterfly house and barely got the house to just being able to walk through. It wasn’t magazine worthy but it wasn’t OMG either. Of course my father and mother thinking I am ever a 2-year-old got upset that I didn’t do as they said and left the BBQ early. I love them dearly, but they make me feel so nervous all the time. I always think I can do what makes me happy and what makes everyone else happy as well at the same time. It doesn’t work like that unfortunately. Maybe when i finally become that well-rounded person that I’m trying to achieve. Then everyone, including myself will finally be happy at the same time. Ok so my goal for this week is to continue working on my house and only slowly bring out all the stuff that I “shoved”. I also want to eat only what’s in my fridge, freezer and pantry. Only go to get milk when needed. Also I don’t want to eat out at all this week, not only because we can’t afford it but because I want my daughter to not look at a McDonald’s and say “mommy fry fry”.  Ultimate goal is to only eat out like 2 times a month, and only at a sit down family restaraunt . I love thinking about that version of me, that awesome mom who makes everything from scratch. I just want to say hello future me. I hope to see you soon.